ANGST ALERT!!

So here's another sporadic attempt at posting. So what's been going on over on my side? Work, play, the usual. I'm definitely at the point that I'm ready to start grad school for a masters degree. Or at least work somewhere else. And it's not going to be anywhere near this area. I'm starting to get sick and tired of a lot of things here. I'm kind of scared that it's soon going to get to the point that I don't give a shit anymore about where/how I work. Yes, I'm so close to being burnt out. I love what I do- it's my calling. I also love the people I work with. Granted, every job has its stress factors. I just can't enjoy what I do under the conditions. I know that my workplace isn't the only place like that. I'm just not happy here though. I dont have an easy job. There's no way. I come home at the end of the day, and I KNOW I did my best at work, caring for people, but i still feel like shit and that I havent done enough. Every day. Maybe I just care too much. I dont know. So either that means it's time for a vacation or it's time to move on outta here. Either way, I think I'm going to stay away from bedside nursing for a while. Maybe i'll try some community nursing. I don't want to be stuck here because of familarity. I don't know- I've got a lot to work out.